"Jum, taleh miss ni. Boleh jadi rutin setiap tahun"
"Setiap tahun?"
"Dari form 5, plkn, smpai tahun ni"
"Well good for ya."
"Dik derma darah?"
"Ye"
"Ade kad?"
"Er, tak bawak."
"Oh, em, adik demam, selsema, batuk?"
"Tak, saya sihat dan kuat sejahtera"
"Tidur cukup?"
"...."
---
Kali ni, aku dah melampaui batas. Aku dah tak tahan.
Aku dah tak sanggup.
Everything starts to come back at me.
Aku dah tak kisah.
Mana-mana pun.
Macam mana aku boleh tak perasan mE ada sekali? Kan kau kena dragged.
Padan muka.
Aku.. mintak maaf.
Mana-mana pun boleh.
Stesen minyak pun boleh.
Aku rasa lemah je lutut.
Bukan sebab faktor semulajadi seorang lelaki.
Tapi sebab aku rasa lemah satu badan.
Aku dah tak tahan.
Stesen minyak pun boleh.
Dengan kereta lalu lalang.
Menghentak-hentak kepala
harapan, menghilangkan semua igauan.
menumbuk-numbuk lantai,
menahan rasa sedih dan bersalah
sampai berdarah
sekeliling aku lihat bagai kaca nak pecah
pecah,
bersepah,
berderai.
aku tak kuat pun.
kenapa
aku tak mintak pun.
kenapa
mustahil gila
kenapa
orang lain tak rasa sikit pun apa aku rasa
kenapa
orang tamak selalu rugi.
padan muka kau, tak pandai hargai
sekarang baru tercari-cari
lupa harga diri.
peduli apa
kau.
kau kesah apa.
drama aku, satu je watak.
aku.
protagonis, kehidupan aku.
antagonis, aku.
mangsa keadaan, aku.
terima kasih.
sama-sama.
Solitaire
There was a man, a lonely man,
who lost his love through his indifference.
A heart that cared, that went unshared,
until it died within his silence.
And Solitaire's the only game in town,
and every road that takes him down.
And by himself, it's easy to pretend,
he'll never love again.
And keeping to himself he plays the game,
without her love it always ends the same.
While life goes on around him everywhere,
he's playing Solitaire.
A little hope goes up in smoke,
just how it goes, goes without saying.
There was a man, a lonely man,
who would command the hand he's playing.
And Solitaire's the only game in town,
and every road that takes him down.
And by himself, it's easy to pretend,
he'll never love again.
And keeping to himself he plays the game,
without her love it always ends the same.
While life goes on around him everywhere,
he's playing Solitaire.
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