Throw everything away again, and I did this as something I'll called as a last-ditch effort. Probably.
In the end there's no winner. But there's a definite loser.
How I wish everything was different. I mean, I'm not me, you are someone else, and maybe we will meet somewhere in between the timeline. Maybe it will be a different conclusion, but everything I'm doing right now, is for everybody's sake.
I'm this kind of person. Never gonna like it, will hate it forever, possibly regreting it half-way, but I have to learn, to accept it.