15 July, 2008

soundtrack to your escape.

mood : mixed
music : Come Clarity - In Flames




Tahniah, sukacita dimaklumkan anda telah ditawarkan tempat bagi mengikuti program seperti berikut :-


"u_u... o_O!!!" was my reaction u_u i wasn't sure what im suppose to feel at the moment.
so yeah, papa suruh ambik dulu, and i was like hooray!(?) u_u; and around 0000 ++ i told my friends and i get a mixed reaction, which im expecting it lol. so 17/7, ill be leaving this computer with its snailmyx XD

thats all?

12 July, 2008

Only For The Weak

mood : rebellious
music : Silent Night, Bodom Night - Children Of Bodom

rafique sms-ed me, die ajak pegi main dota. ape lagi, mesti ah aku agreed. dh lame x lepas gian XD pastu tetibe tergt kat mE, amal, bebdak spam lah~ jd ak msg ah u_u well x ah lame sgt, nk tnye bende jer, nk lengkapkan smthing haha
so dalam pukul 0100 cmtu aku tunggu dpan umah die, egt die dh lame redi, tetgk die ckap line x clear, tunggu jap. 0130 still x clear, aku dpan umah die mcam tmpat nyamuk gigit lak =_=

otw gi sane, aku tunjuk kat die gamba member2 men paintball, well die nampak regret gak lah, tapi dia, dh name Rafique Bin Shamsul Bahri, kompem ego tinggi gile nk ngaku. haish, mcm mcm member aku nie. sorg emosi, sorg ego. haizz.

so picture of the day? yeah, bru nk update kalender yg ben kasik XD ni die~

my fav part of my room ^^;

11 July, 2008

My Sweet Shadow

mood : enlightened
music : Hatebreeder - Children Of Bodom

finished! my playlist <33 i love my playlist! XD pnat buat nak taruk kat blog xDDD pasni boleh taruk kat blog <33


on 2nd thought, maybe no u_u maybe i just let it be on myspace, for me and only me to hear it. u_u

celcom. is it THAT good? well lets find out :D

thats all~

roti TERbakar

10 July, 2008


music : Who Are You - The WHO

i end up lying on my bed. still, i can't get what bob's words out of my mind. really. it just like, stuck inside here. fuck. saket. blakang badan ade mcm lebam bulat. it fucking hurts. okay x de la sakit like kene tikam dgn stygian desolator (dota lol), tapi mcam kene cranium basher (dota lagi lol). pastu baru prasan kaki ade, tgan pun ade. hais.

i slept.

mama papa ade function kat putra (pakai baju melayu? lol). so i decided to go to cc. i gave papa a call, he say okay, you may, but make sure come back early. yah, thats a confirmation their going to be late. so sof sms me saying thanks, have a gud time, blahblahblah, talking about the 'congrates, u just being shot by a paintball marker just now' mark D: she said what im doing, i said well, driving, nak pegi cc. dah lame x online and stuff. pastu sof said that her parents are out, dinner, die balek balek kene siapkan ayah die punye songket etc. pastu die cakap yg her laptop down, takleh online. so i asked her whether she want to go to and she said YES. u_u;
thats a problem actually. u_u;;;
sofhatun nur, the first daughter of a well-known parents here, superbly rich, distinguished family, very clever, will fly to UK under JPA.
me? well nothing. u_u
well, everything then went from worst to disaster, to catastrophe. u_u of course, her parents are angry, but well, salah aku gak ajak die. bodoh gile u_u; yah im stupid. u_u baka. u_u
sorry U_U

so hari tu end up with a mixed feeling inside me. u_u guilt, happy, sad, hyper and yah, sleep is the easiest way out. tapi tapi, nak cakap dengan dia
so malam tu aku tido pukol 4 lebeh haha. and i sleep soundly.

omg parents die ngan parents aku ade function kat tempat same? o_O!!!
some updated pictures of that day.

mcam bentuk hati kata sof

omg it sure does. u_u

lol pose 1

and why me? T.T

sincerely done.

roti TERbakar

09 July, 2008

aftermath - a conversation

mood : satisfied
music : Say Goodnight - Bullet For My Valentine

i remember, what bob said to me when i was driving.
"gile ah jat, aku puas hati giler dpat maen ngan member member tadi! aku x kesah dah bile naek komuter nnt orang usha slack baju ngan seluar aku, aku pakai terus medal nih," sambil tunjuk medal die.
srysly, i was satisfied myself. it was lyke, our first and last time playing paintball together. and we won until semi final. so okay what? member punye pasal, i lend bob RM40 for the fee charge. the money we won is RM200, so when splited into 5 ppl, evryone get RM40 back, and bob paid me back. well i dont mind if bob keep the money. yang penting, i want to enjoy the game. and i did. cume satu je.

"ye, ak pun paham," bob said to me. dier paham kot riak muke aku. tah lah.
"ak pun tak puas hati jugak. ak dtg sini jao jao, bukannye nk maen skali," i know, he was referring to rafique. i kept quiet, and drove.
"ko dah ah member ngan ak dah 8 taon lebeh dah. rafique, 7 taon lebeh dah." i remain silent.
"kalau lpas ni dapat main x pe lah, tapi ko tau ah, awal awal masuk U, semua cakap, ala cuti sem ade~ tapi tgk la, nnt waktu cuti sem, kompem. CONFIRM die keluar ngan member U atau awek die."
"bile die bagi alasan camtu, ak terasa tau."
"alah, bukan ko x paham rafique to camne, die mmg camtu pun, x kan terase lagi.." i replied, defending him. i don't know why i did that, maybe i don't want any of my friend get hurts. i don't know.

"ye ah tapi takkan la pegi sekolah punye carnival, at least sokong la kite pun kalau x maen, ini tidak. pegi jalan jalan dgn pompuan."
"tu lah, first time aku dga ko dah couple, aku tergelak ko tau. egt pastu, lupe member. aleh aleh ak baru tau yg diana tu memahami gile," mmg, aku x nafikan, bile cakap nak main dota ngan rafique, bob, diana cakap, "main main gak, egt di tau!" and bile keluar, die slalu egtkan, "simpan duet, nnt nak maen dota.."
yeah, bob's right. so i do what i do, remain silent and drive the kancil towards KTM station.

all the way back to bandar country homes, i kept thinking, what will happen in the next 10, no, 2 years? will we be the best buddies ever?

and for why i remain mostly quiet, i don't know.. if i talked, maybe i'd cry. lol. so thats what happened that saturday evening.

calci-yum sdap jugak eh? XD


07 July, 2008

yay, update!! (finally)

mood : happy, damn happy.
music : Hearts Burst Into Fire - Bullet For My Valentine

I'm leaving
Do you wait for me again?
I'm screaming
No more days that I just spent

yeeaaah!! last saturday was my freakiest day, (till today) XD the most freaking wicked sick saturday (at school) XD well let me tell you frm the beginning wth juz happnd to me XD

on Friday, 4th of July (sofhatun's bday lols XD) cik aznida call me, she said about the school fest tomorrow on 5th. so i was like, oh, yeah, em, yes, okaaay and bla bla~ XD then she asked me about the paintball tournament. she said papa yg tlg panggil kan organizer tu, so i was like, Huh? really? (anak sndri pun tatau lol. u_u) so cikgu asked me to enter, she said sofhatun really wanted to join so~ yeah.. thats how it goes.

5th of July, bob Fadley came all the way from IIUM in PJ, (thanks bro :D) tapi of course, im the one who will picked him out at komuter rawang Lol. raf was there, ariffin too! XD so, bob, ariffin, me and sof will be paintball-ing jap lagi!! 8D the feeling of anxiety overwhelmed me XD (mane raf?) oh yeah, raf is not going to join us so i was like, alaaaaa... and bob lagi la "lupe member, mcm tu ah, dh 7 taon kawan, bla bla bla.." u_u;; sof lagi la, "alaa, camne nak maen ni.. (x egt member pun xD)" and ariffin was like "...." u_u;;


so lemme explain how to go to final, the prize etc.
prize :
First place : RM 600 + medal
Second place : RM 400 + medal
Third place : RM 300 + medal
Fourth place : RM 200 + medal
Fifth and so on place : a shot in the back / hand / leg. :D

how to go to final?
first round, group stage. - win 2 out of 3 game to continue to quarter final
second round, q-final stage. - win 2 game to continue to semi final
third round, semi final stage. - win it, final.
fourth round, final. - win it, win the tournament.

so bob, the leader of team Sofhatun Nur (LOLL!!!) said before the game, "kite dpat maen 3 game pun ak dah puas, janji ak maen enjoy ngan member member.." (waw bob, u actually smthng nice and sentimentally said O_o) and off we go to first round!
first game - Lose. (we are seperated. sof and auni jalan jalan lol. me go makan with chee hau. bob, who knows. ariffin? yea he go to see his bro's rumah hantu, so padan muke.)
second game - Win. (team lawan x datang. u_u)
third game - Win. (team cikgu JC x de. he said "mane ade, derang x panggil pun ktorang!" well, too bad.)

"... x pgang marker (pistol tu) pun dpat ke q-final, hebat gile. teamwork!!" kate bob. u_u

so off to q-final, first game.
we enter the field dgn tujuan, nak enjoy. mmg la, after this sof nak terbang ke uk dah D: auni, bob, ariffin pun dh masuk u dh~ so hmm~~ who cares, janji enjoy!

2 minutes later.
its now 2 vs 3. me and sof up against 3 ppl. and i ran out of bullets. and, spalt. im out. so sof, our only hope, managed to kill all of them. (gila babi. u_u) so yea, we won. u_u;;;

q-final, second game.
i killed 2 ppl, we won with no casualties at our side. idup team sofhatun! XD

semi final, first game.
we lost. using the same strategy, our side was traped and bob once again, become the first victim. then ariffin. then auni. so, 2 vs 4 u_u i manage to kill 2 ppl, but when im aiming at the third person, he gone and one of the audience dgn penuh smgt scream like a girl (or she was a girl) BLAKANG KAUUU!! POM!
well, ..
baru 10 saat cmtu sof pun out so, we lose the game D:

3rd 4th place battle.
using the same strategy, we owned them at first. i killed 3 ppl, and ran out of ammo (again). so malas nk tunggu lame lame, i ran and ran towards the opposition flag and grab one pastu lari, tapi well kne tembak bertalu talu mcm x bg chance =_=X so my left arm, my leg, was shot. so i die u_u; tinggal la auni, pun x de bullet, def the base. haish sian die. u_u

so yea, we lose. but 4th place? okay pe XD and we enjoyed our day ^O^/ really, thanks a bunch guys! you (we) guys rocked! XD

ketibaan sof with her yellow porsche

bob, killed kejam-ly u_u (q final 1st game)

sof, uninjured (q final 1st game)

ariffin, the bullet helped him a 'little' out of the game (q final 1st game)

me in the middle, and devan(?) on top of us.

man (woman) of the match, sof!

4th place is okay guys D:


and still, byk lagi gamba dgn face mask, dgn marker, but well, upload la cpat cpat gamba tu aripin! and guys, thanks a lot.

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