strike 3, batter out!

it's 3. and i still can't sleep. and tomorrow is monday. i mean, today. such a cold night. last night was awesome. i think today's gonna be great too, cept with the fact that i have to get ready at 6. sigh. 

oh and a cute ahmoy confessed at me today! lol. she sed she still had crushed on me from standard six. ahhh good ol days. days where boys always wanted to please her while me, like always, the anarchy. lol. well idk what makes her had this crush, and that crush can go hold on for that long too. well tho, she has a boyfriend too. it made it look so awkward. nvm. she's in leeds pun btw. no point nak think about it punn. eh i should've said that she has a boyfriend so i shouldn't think about it kan? terbalik? LOL.

anyway, pegi la mamps dia jap, i just wanna say that i'm excited about my edith! she's coming back in a week! lama lagi but i'm already sexcited. eventho baru 3 hari she's gone, i feel like it's almost 3 years. so long mang. 

ahh i shud go to sleep. still in raya mood too. sigh. 

Mend A Broken Heart

mood: sleepy
music: Stand By Me - Ben E. King

have you ever clean up ur deskie? or lappie. well have you? if u did, bet u'll find old pics. eventho its not THAT old, but by staring at the pic alone enough to make u wanted to find other old pics. some event that took place around 3-4 years back, and stuff. those pictures of yer classmates, friends, exes, etc. it'll take some times , around hour or two just to remember back what happen when the moment captured. then u'll smile, or u'll feel sad, maybe u'll feel puzzled, "Why did he make me cry?" and stuff. last skali? dah pukul 10. which meannn. i don't sleep. again. hais.

ah, maybe i fed up. again. thats why im changing the template. i'll change again, but not in the nearest weeks. exam, and yadayadayada. ive explained all in the last post. so scroll down, dude. and why does i still felt those annoying feeling? satu perasaan. satu sensation. yang sgt unpleasant. lonely, bored, sad. those stuff. yknow. but wellll. i shud know that it'll be a matter of time before things reset to normal. kan? so sabar la k

suddenly rase cam byk sgt bende nak beli. nak beli lampu ntuk kancil, nak psp, nak ipod, iphone, nokia 5800, ps3, wireless modem, deskie, lens.. and the list goes on =_= abg and kakak always bragging bout their stuff, like

"Abg punya belt ni 50+ tau dak?" "Still x leh celen kakak punya kasut, 400+" "Ahh! Abg punya kasut pun around tu gak!" "Beg LV kakak 2500." "Abg punya jam rolex (papa kasi) pun around harga tu gak!" "Eh, egt abg je ade rolex? (mama kasi)"

those rich bastards. XXX>_____________> gado cam budak2 sal bende kecik2 cmtu. semua start bila abg ckap kblkangan ni dia asek nak beli baju baru. kakak ckap nk bli kasut baru. I admit, i have one Bvlgari, tapi jarang pakai. gila, nak pakai ngan jersey? and yeah, my fashion sense is not as good as urs, thank you. plus i dun ave PTPTpu. so no extra moneyh. wey, i wan to show off also laaaaa!

crack the shutters.

mood : studystudystudystudystudystudy
music : Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Ku Miliki - Sheila On 7

terus terang lar cakap kan, aku mmg tak dengar lagu2 indon/mainstream.
tapi bile aku tekan all song kat Media Player, aku ter-random lagu ni.
SHEILA ON 7??? sesat.
bila dengar2 balik, baru teregt camne leh sesat masuk lam Archive aku yang lagu2 around 200++ tuh.

Lagu ni selalu berkumandang tatkala aku tga berjalan mengikut barisan ke arah kelas CB6. Yaa. PLKN. Masuk2 terus dga lagu ni, nampak ade satu basket penuh dgn bola yang ade biji biji kat dalam die. Dan Cikgu Asnida (if im not mistaken) + Cikgu Ayu tga tunggu, then automaticly aku pergi ambil nametag aku kat nametag kumpulan aku. (SIX), (STARZ). Then ktorang akan practice juggle. Hoo. Juggle itu susah beb. Nampak camdoh, ble buat, rase mcam orang bodoh juggle. Memang jahil gile menjuggle. Sambil tunggu rakan2 sekelas lain masuk.

Then tukar lagu lain. Lagu Hijau - Zainal Abidin. Sambil2 tu kalau dah fed-up asek bola tu terpelanting kene group lain ke, lenguh pinggang kutep ke (ye, juggle berdiri fyi) Cikgu Nida akan ajak menari. Maka menari lah kami. Macam budak-budak. Macam budak-budak? haah. aku agree. mmg segan gle. tapi after 10 days, aku dah biase jadi budak-budak kat tadika. Berjoget, gelak2, guleng2, mmg best larh. Habis lagu Hijau, ade lagu orchestra nih, tapi bunyi die amat saspen, slame 10 saat jer. Tanda pintu nak tutup dah. Sape lambat, FULL LORENG. wahaha. eh ape yang chuak nye kalau kene FULL LORENG? Padahal tu la perkataan a.k.a command yang paling ktorang se daye upaye elak.

FULL LORENG - berpakaian Uniform Kawad Lengkap, berjemur di padang kawad bermula pukul 12 tgahari. Duration? Bergantung kepada apa jenis kesalahan yang anda lakukan. Kalau kene seminggu, jawabnye dengan baju tu lar anda akan berlari 3 km pada awal pagi, baju tu lar anda akan bermain di petang hari, baju tu juga anda akan pakai untuk solat 5 waktu sehari semalam. Gempak. AWESOME.

Aku, bukan nak bangge. cewah. Tapi aku tak pernah kene hahahahaha. Even Ketua Keseluruhan a.k.a yang akan bagi command kat semua squad (Alpha, Bravo, Charlie, Delta) pun pernah merasa. Aku CLEAN SHEET. walau pernah bertumbuk dan bergado antara dorm. Aku berjaya melarikan diri di saat warden2 OTW nak spoilkan pertarungan tu, dan semestinya membuat dormmate aku jealous gile. Nasib tak mengkantoikan aku. Sebab kalau tak, derang lak kantoi merokok oleh aku. haha

Well kelas CB tu mmg cam budak-budak. Tulis impian, gune magic pen, ade buku disediakan, ade aktiviti berkumpulan, menyanyi, berjoget, etc etc. Tapi lambat laun aku rase best. Sbb all the time starting 9 am till 2 pm ktorang bergelak je. bergurau sakan. menganjing. etc etc. Padahal dalam hati masing2 rase nak sangat balik. Lagi2 aku kat TERENGGANU beb. Aku rindu mp3 aku. tiap2 malam mp3 yang ada cuma berbunyi di sebelah katil anda sahaja. Kadang best, kadang garau, kadang sumbang, pitching lari. Biase lar, cover song ape. Janji ade entertainment.

Petang Jumaat tu, confirm ramai gle beratur kat plug2 yang ade kat dorm. Pukul 3 je, semue gi Dewan Makan, menuntut HANDPHONE. Waktu paling happening. Semue scramble, lari sane lari sini, terus call sane, call sini, mcm2 bunyi ade waktu On Handphone tu. msg masuk. haha. Patu mula la Acara Pecut 200M Lelaki. Menuju ke arah plug2. Masing2 nak charge hp. Pastu melepak kat katil orang2 yang ade kat situ. Sembang. Gelak2. Pastu sunyi. semue konsentret kat hp masing2. Yela, malam Sabtu kene pulang balik hp tu. Srys weh, malam Sabtu tu, semue kalau boleh nak antar paling lambat, termasuk lah aku. Ade yang menangis. aku pulak sanggup call orang lol. Saje menganggu die dan aku sangat kebosanan. Dia pun terpaksa layan aku haha. Malam tu maxis stuck! msg takleh masuk, susah nak call orang. gile. Maka habis sabtu tu, habis la hari minggu kitorang. Terus sulky balik hari Ahad tu.

Kalau bosan weekdays buat ape? em ade satu trend ni. awal2 takde. masuk 2nd month, penuh! Iaitu HANTAR SURAT. Yeah, back to basic babes. angkara hp tade. surat pengubat rindu. malam-malam tu ade la yang melepak kat luar, bace surat bawah pokok la, konon privacy! tak takut pun walau pukul 2 pg. Tulis-tulis surat, ade corak sane, corak sini. Pelangi beb. pastu kalau tade idea mule la menanye member sebelah. Die pun ape lagi, cukup suke. Walaupun baru je bangun tidur, terus keluar ayat gile bes. mcam tulis novel punye ayat! Si Posmen lak untung. Dapat upah maksimum Burger Ayam Double Cheese. Minimum dapat pahala je lar, tapi slalunye dapat RM1. but still untung pe. Aku la antara posmen2 nih haha.

Oh well tu la antara ape yang aku bebel untuk 2 minggu nih. PLKN stuff. Eventho tade kene mengene langsung, tapi aku nak cakap gak. Tah tetibe nak cakap sal ni.
Aku tga online kat Library. Kene research tu, ni. + study Logic. Dah tepu dengan ilmu Logic, aku beralih ke blog pulak.

Oh ya. MANCHESTER MENANG LAWAN INTER MILAN.
Glory glory Man United~ Glory glory Man United~ As The Reds goes marching On! On! On!!

random #1

//here is where ill put some random things//

it was in mid 1997 if im not mistaken
9, Jalan Negeri Sembilan Selatan, Federal Hill
menjadi kelaziman untuk aku main basikal ptang ptang
dulu adalah abang nak meneman
pergi pusing pusing satu bukit tu.
well Jalan Negeri Sembilan Selatan ni actually satu roundabout
yg kat tgah2 die byk rumah
so kami akan pusing satu kawasan tu lar
hari tu abang takde.
die gi sekolah
standard 2 kat Sekolah Sultan Hishamuddin Alam Shah sesi ptg.
i cycled alone.
then someone called my name
its Atiqah, my neighbour.
chubby, cheerful, active giler
usually kakak, Anwar (her bro), me, podin and Atiqah will walk, or jog, or play basketball, or badminton together.
so that day kami je ler
dont remember where Anwar and kakak whereabouts
we talked and laugh, and yada yada, kids, yknow.
and sampai dkat ngan rumah die balik.
i said see you tomorrow
she replied i ll be leaving the day after tomorrow.
she is going to US for 5 years
and, i don't really sure what i said to her
but she was really, really upset. marah. nak nangis
menangis kot, tapi die betul betul marah
yes, she was crying when she running back to her house
i called her but she just run
i felt guilty, tremendously
try to chase her by using my bike
tah cmner ranting kayu tersekat kat jaring2 basikal tu
jatuh.
rebah.
tgn kiri tersepit. meraung tak hengat ah
and after quite sometime i.. sleep
mcm tu je. u_u
then bukak mata.
directly at the sky
the orange-ish sky.
its sunset now.
and i laughed.

i forgot what happened tho next.
what happened at atiqah.
but i remember, the day when she left
i was there too. but nothing happened.
either i forgot to apologize
or she dont remember what happened.

and for what happen later 5 years? i moved already
to Rawang.
last time i saw her was in 2007, when SPM is over edi
somehow papa bawak kami jalan2 rumah lama
when we saw aunty Lina tgah duduk atas kerusi kayu
dkat halaman rumah die
so we dropped by
and there she is, turun tangga
and my oh my..
she is soooo pweety
i mean like
she TRANSFORMED!
dulu - pendek, chubby
now - same height as mine, slim, model lyke. rambut lurus evntho blond-ish
well aku tak tego dulu
gile ah
segan ah beb.
when aunty Lina point at me and asked her
"Tiqah kenai tak ni sapa?"
"Aizat kan?"
oh. DIE INGAT T.T!!!
sgt trharu lols
and aunty Lina still cakap pelat utara
SANGAT PEKAT.
and yeah, rumah die still byk kucheng.
dan perabot2 yg sgt humongous!
Anwar pun still igt kakak
tak silap Anwar tu first love kakak kot
hahaha
truly, memory is something really, really nice.