was am still alone. these sadness, never really leave me.
while you having fun, i too, will have some fun, somewhere where, the smells of disinfectant reeks. where, all my painful memories, of all my loved ones, here. I hate it.
it's no fair. i hate this feeling. envious. of everything. of others' happiness. of something i don't really belong.
i'm that selfish.
i.. became more vulnerable. that's not me.