I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black

I'm depressed, and kinda trying to hanging there?
Life is never easy, but I hope this is the last time I'll heard this kind of news.
I did hope before, but shit happens, once twice but THRICE.
counting?
Actually no. I really hope this is the last.
Frankly, hope, means nothing much at me right now.
I know it sounds pathetic.
I'm sorry I'm pathetic.
But I bet if you guys felt what I feel, be in my shoes instead of yours
Maybe
I hope you guys feel the same way I do
Because I don't want to go this phase alone.
I suck, right? Selfish bastard.
Memang aku selfish. Aku dah penat.