14 July, 2009

It's Not Easy.

Music : Get Out While You Can - Starsailor

It was Sunday. A typical Sunday, except for a festival that is happening at Cyberjaya, Daicon. Went there by Rafique's car. So at the Daicon, we went hurah this and that, there and here, etc etc. Had fun, and otw back we managed to bash flame kaw kaw. Later Kens and his bro drop me in front of my college so i managed to save some ringgits for the taxi.

Later at 9.30 pm, I went to Burn (Faiz)'s room. He created a football team, consists of our course, DDZ (graphicHolic). I played as DCM :D oh well, I won the first game, using Man Utd of course, with Faiz using the new team, graphicHolic. and FIFA SUCK. I cannot pass through the ball >_> thats my way of playing football, so yeah, I forced to play crossing etc. And the 2nd game, I lose, horribly. Plus I (in the game) scored some more. wtf. 2 goals. haiyo. and we ( Faiz, me and Nazrul his roomate ) laughs a lot. I realised its 1 am already, so I left the room to have some rest. Besok kelas at 10, kena bangun at 8.30 am. =_=

And otw back, I saw something on the badminton court. I kinda suprised, because the first thing in my mind is, someone fell from some random floor. Then when I thought about it for the second time, naaaah. How come. So I walked again, still looking at the body, puzzling. Then I saw a pool of blood beside him. I WAS STUNNED. To the extent where I don't know what to do. Then 3-4 people come rushing down from the upper floor. They told me to call for help. So I remember Faiz, and ran to his room. And i thought, hey, I should call for help. So I yelled 'Ambulans!' and some random person came out from his room.

'Kenapa?'
'Ada orang jatuh'
'Dekat mana?'
'Court' Aku malas nak panjang2. penat. tercungap2 lagi.
'Oh. Ade lagi ke orang main bola memalam camni. Gi la bgtau felo'
'.... D:'
'Dekat court badminton laa.' was my reply. Dalam hati ni, rase nak tenyeh je muke mamat ni dgn sambal belacan
'Eh, srysla'
'...' (Malas nak layan, so I knocked Burn's room)

'Burn, de org jatuh banggunan'
'Katne?' with the WTH face
'Kat court badminton'

Then I ran back at the place where I saw the body. Faiz ikut skali, with the towel lol wth. The body's still there, just the same as it was just now. Only some ppl start coming there. 3-4 people. I think. Then I don't know what to do. srysly, I felt, nauseous, when I don't think I'll felt that. And now, orang dah start datang. Makin lama makin ramai.

Then I saw the body kene pusing. Nak tgk muka kot. Nampak tangan dia mcm still bergerak. Eh. Illusion ke. Burn pun nampak, so betul la tu. Masih bergerak! I think. So I thought okay, maybe he'll survived. But where's the paramedic? It's now 1.15 am, and there's still no sound of siren. I called Sue (sorry, because I really, don't know who to call.) and tell her about this. Gila ah. Then I said to myself, kenapa aku call Sue? Dia perempuan kot. Kalau dia xleh tdo nnt. And stuff. And I continue to talk to Sue.

At 2 am, I feel like going back to my room. There's nothing I can do. I saw newspapers being thrown from 4th and 5th floor. And ppl below started to cover the body. I thought, that's it. I went back to my room. Tell Adib bout this stuff, later he went and see all the way sampai habis, and I just.. stayed at my room. Still terbayang what happened. Somehow I think maybe I was traumatized, maybe. Well I cannot sleep. It's not easy to forget such a tragedy. Such a shame. How life can ended so soon, so early.

I must admit, I just close my eyes. Tak tido pun. And it was like, a flashback. It sounded cliché, but yeah. And I must admit, I forgot, I mean, moved on with my life, but now I started to remember things again. It's hard. Damn hard. I moved on, and this happened. I remembered everything back. I almost cried, but I cannot. Maybe because of the nauseousness, but I cannot vomit. And it continue till the next morning.

The next morning, it's raining. How cold. I felt like I can sleep now, but well, it's 9 am. So I woke Adib, and we prepare ourselves, and go to class, as usual.

tingkap di mana arwah jatuh. sumber, Kosmo!

1 comment:

i AM dora. said...

aku ade baca cite ni dlm paper.
innalillah.
paper kate time die jatuh still hidup lagi then bile odw gi hospital ke or time kat hospital dia meniggal.
tak sangka plak ko yg jumpa dia dulu.