Taiping

wooh yesterday was a veerryy tiring day. :D

went to Taiping after 2 years. well it's kinda long period y'know.

went there to pick up my SPM cert.

went there by car. 8D

woke up late at 6.45 am orz. Promised Arif Shah I'll be at OU at 6.30 OTL well it's because I cannot sleep, again orz. Then at 4 I decided to 'be with Lunesta' again xD so yeaah. Anyway we decided to meet up at Restoran Jejantas Sg Buloh, so we ber'gerak' at 7.30. At when Arif said, jum gerak, I was like *shaking my hands and body in a sotong like manner 8D* which remind me of Burn and Adib xD

His mother was the driver, and he was the co-driver. I felt nauseous, really, when his mother drive. TBH, I have a "no, don't-drive-slowly-or-I'll-get-dizzy" kinda disease. And I felt like throwing up except I strongly tahan 8D

Later at Tapah Arif drive. Me, Fareha and Arif talked a lot about teachers, and school, yeah, we really miss SERATAS. Even though it's hard to admit, but yeaahh. And still Arif drive slowly orz so I decided to sleep. 8DDDD

Woke up at Changkat Jering, and saw Fareha also sleeping. xD Then when she woke up we chat a lil bit, and Arif's mom told us that Haji Jamaluddin is the one that persuaded Arif to stay at SERATAS, and Arif was crying, dunwan to go. We laughed like hell! Arif of course, denies it well.

Bila sampai, pergh. Dah x nampak mcm SERATAS sgt dah. All sorts of building tumbuh macam cendawan lepas hujan. Well I thought only Aspuri building got +2, but at basketball court also now they constructing academic building. And there's a new Makmal Computer building too! The Dewan Besar now air-cond-ed, got wifi, and a looooot of new things! Well it maybe because we are now Sekolah Klustur or stuff, and I heard that it's gonna be upgraded into *whatever* Sekolah, considering the budget for Sekolah Klustur is about 500k, while this new *whatever* Sekolah budget is around 700k. Dammit! Why everything is happening at SERATAS when we all left it already? Siod.

And we met some teachers. Madam Lee, she remember me, my name! 8D, Mr Potato the first teacher we saw, Mr Nazrul, who teaches me Math, and I kinda blame him for I believe he is the reason my result for Math dropped 8D Mr Goh sadly, retired. I'm so wanna see him. Dx Cik Puan Syahiza Abas, mengandung lol. Baru nak panggil Cik Syahiza then saw her belly I was like Cik- - - gu! xD And she remembered me as well! Waw xD Cikgu Hamidi still the same, lawak gile, and kinda sarcastic lol.

And a loooot of juniors remember us t.t I was so terharu hahahaha. Madena tegor Arif, and some girls "Eh, akak Farehaaaa" and we was like having fun. lol. Went lurking at form 5 class when we went at 5K. there Fareha meet up with his juniors, again, so does Arif. I.. did not have a very good relationship with that batch actually 8D but they still remember me, and went out to greet me. And asking me, "Abg Saiful, egt tak perempuan tu?" and I saw a girl jap tunjuk muka, jap hide herself. I was like, what the .. err. tak? "Oh yeke" That guy was like dissapointed. Hey don't blame me! I don't even recognize all my batch friends okay! D: *And that girl was kinda cute, too. Shit.* Anyway. they having SPM tomorrow *which is today* and we dun wanna kacau them so much. After that we went home.

Bila dekat Tapah baru Acap msg tanya korg katne because he just went back from jalan2 with his opah lol xD And Dodol called me ajak pegi ambik sijil I was like wtf ktorang dah dekat tapah lol bukan nak bgtau awal2. haha. Anyway, I don't spend a single ringgit on that trip yay only spend RM 16 for BR's milkshake lol.

So. End. 8D

yay today I slept! ^O^/

it's a good feeling~ kimochiiii. xDDDDDD

well eventho it's just from 5-6.46 am. still a progress is a progress haha. 8Db

Tee hee hee. Last paper. All the best for me.
Good Luck to all my friends. Ganbate for me too.
Harap waktu buat paper nnt x tertdo 8Db
And enjoying life at the moment. Bahaha.
"Epul kau xtdo ke?"
"Tak."
"Kau nak mati ke? Paper pukul 2.30"
"Hahahaha"

Tu jela yang mampu dibuat. Gelak. Then nak buat pe? Bukan aku nak pun.
Kekekeke.
Arif Faiszuan dtg. Haha. Mmg gelak non-stop. xD
Tgah bace Institusi Islam. Boleh lak mngarut. Bende2 lucah. Benggong
Gelak non-stop. Siod. Ahahaha. xD
Jumaat nnt keluar. xD

Amitriptyline

This sucks. I hate this.

Actually, What have I done, that other people don't do, to deserve all this?

Am I really that bad?

I hate it. Yes I'm being emotional. I can't help it. I'm sick of all of this.

I hate you guys.

I envy you guys.

All of you.

ALL OF YOU. EVERYONE OF YOU. YOU GUYS SUCKS FOR MAKING ME ENVIOUS, YES HATE ME, I'M NOT THAT GOOD. I'M A NORMAL BEING. IF YOU DON'T LIKE READING THIS PLEASE GTFOUT OF MY BLOG MY LAST SPACE FOR RANTING.

I'm so fucked up. This is all bullshit. I'm sick to my stomach. WTF IS THIS, WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?

And to think that this is my 100th post. Yes I don't really mind the milestone but. At least I don't want something like this as my 100th post.

I envy you guys. Why am I the only one to get this feeling?

Starlight Stalker

When I'm gone away
I hope you will be stronger, to live the rest of your life
Well don't cry baby, don't you cry for me
And I'm praying that you will find someone better

For all the consequences we've been into, and we've gone through
I love you for being appreciative and loving me with all your heart
With all your mind, with all your beautiful soul, your beautiful soul

Your bright eyes told me everything that you wanted to say to me, I've got it!
Don't quit here, don't put your head behind everyone
Please bring back all the sweet memories away from the cemetery
And leave the thoroughness behind

Loving you, it's the best thing that I can ever remember
I swear to god! You've been the one that made my life more contented
I really couldn't explain in words on how much I love you

Lunesta

It's 6 am. I've just realized.

Haish. What are friends? Bunch of people that'll be there fer ya when you're happy? People that help you understand world? Or someone that'll help you when you're down? Which is the true definition of friends? Well yeah, of course they'll said friend is peoples that are always be with you whenever, whatever happens. Issat true? Really?

Well fuck it. Fuck whatever friend means. For me everyone that I know is a friend.

Wait, why am I babbling bout friends here? @_@

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Just now I heard that Tya fainted. Hish. that girl. Told you already. Have a good rest. Go sleep. Don't push yourself to hard. You're fragile. You are not that strong. You are just a normal being for gawd sake. Act like one!

Ha tengok ni Tya, pesanan ikhlas daripada penaja.

But then,

"Eh, you pun same jugak. Nampak lagi teruk ade la!"

..yeah, well, er, erm that's true but but.

Now I realized. Who am I to say those things to her, when I, myself do the same thing! Oh, how stupid. Act like I'm the most helpful person in the world. Hah. In your face dude.

To be honest I felt kinda, afraid. Well, you see, people always talk that sleeping pills is addictive, causing side effects, bla bla bla. EVEN with the doc's prescription, I'm still afraid to take those pills. But you know, the feeling of fainted, is suckier than eating those pills. Don't need to explain much tho, Tya herself dah rasa. xD

I'm getting tired of writing this shits, it's the same thing, again and again. So from the time being, Lunesta, you're my friend. You'll help me, right? Don't let me down. Please?

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This sucks. This dark, pitch black night. The rain, just rubbing salt to the wounds. This chilling night, is like a never ending nightmare. It will happen, again, and again, and again.

This sucks.

time after time

Been quite for a moment, I realize. Not posting too often. Maybe it's because I'm having final here. Yeah. But, I'm still here. Just lurking on other's blog. Having a good time reading them. :)

Still not having a great night, not once. 8 nights, I think. Well, I hope this goes as soon as my final is over. Gonna have fun a lot after this. Planning to go to Red Box and blow everyone's ear with my singing. XD

Argh. To be honest, just now me and Faiz bad talk Adib. XD I complained to Faiz about how lovey-dovey Adib has become. Faiz, well.. "Biase lah, awal-awal memang la camtu" But when you think about it carefully, I think they become close like, since, awal sem? *swt*

And we both planning to kidnap Adib. :D Umpan him using basketball. Ajak basketball, then kidnap him. And blackmail Aqeela. >:D Mfufufufufufufu *KA-CHIIING*

So bad ah. Well that's what everyone been thinking. Jealous punya pasal lah. XD

Arhh after this got Audio Video paper at 9. Just now at 9 pm, Mr Nadzari, when asked about the final paper, replied Burn's message. After reading the message, Burn start playing PES 2010.

"Tak study ke?"

"Bace msg die."

"Tak ada bab-bab. Semua same jer. Saya dah untukkan masa untuk tidor dalam 45 minit...hehe.."

....

So I went back to my room, and play PES 2010 while waiting for AC Milan vs Real Madrid's game.